Tuesday, September 26, 2006

***Our 2nd Month***

Our second mo.

Dapat kahapon pa ako gagawa ng entry eh kaso my final quiz ako so xempre kainlangan unahin yon, ayaw ko naman bumagsak hehe magagalit ang mahal ko (=()…

Hay naka dalawang bwan na kami and and we are doing great I can say that our relationship is deeper and more meaningful…waw finally this is the kind of relationship that im looking and hoping for, so xempre kailangan na alagaan at pahalagahan (tama ba mahal?) hehe…

Second time na ng mahal ko na maka punta dito and this time talagang na enjoy namin yung time namin together, nagawa namin lahat ng gusto namin…pero ang na enjoy ko eh yung nakahiga lang kami tapos nakayakap kami sa isa’t isa habang nag kukwentuhan ng mga bagay bagay about the past, the future and the past participle hehe…ano paba at xempre walang katapusang kulitan…

Alam nyo ba guys na ang sweet ng mahal ko? Ang gift nya sa akin ay napakaganda and meaningfull, that was the first time someone gave a present na talagang may meaning…gusto ko sana I post yung letter nya sa akin para maipag malaki ko pero xempre akin nalang yon! Hehe, ako naman ang bigay ko na kanya eh yung bagay na makakapag paalala sa akin na magagamit nya, so pag suot nya yon eh kasama narin nya ako hehe…buti nalang at nagustuhan nya talaga sabi nya sa akin na mahilig xa mag collect ng mga ganun and every collection eh may meaning and special experience…

Xenxa na mahal ha mura lang kasi yan dibale pag natanggap na ako dun sa work ko eh I can give you sumthing na talagang astig hehe…

Mahal ko thank you talaga ha, I know I keep saying this but im happy na dumating ka sa buhay ko, your really my inspiration…

Ayayaten ka! Kayat ko nga maamuam nga pampanunuten ka nga kinanayon!

Sunday, September 17, 2006

You just have to make the most out of it...

Instead of making a happy entry about the good stuff that has been happening to me, maybe I should write the things that upsets me or the things that I wanted to do but I cant because of some personal reason and some other bullsh[i!1l]t stuff…

This morning my mom and I were talking about how hard life is, and how hard it is to budget money, then I kinda told her that if only I have a brother or sister it should not be this hard because I have someone who will help me in providing for the family, but what can I do, this is my destiny and no matter how I complain things will not change…then my mom, out of the blue said this “dapat kasi mag asawa kana para may katulong kana!” I can not blame my mom for saying that because she is starting to get old and she told me that she envy her brother for having grandchildren….the problem is I don’t know if I will ever get married…I don’t even know if that will happen…anyway while we were talking my mom said “ang dad mo nga naiinis pag nag pupunta dito si Curach, baka daw kasi nahahawa ka ng kabaklaan” and then the dreaded question pop out!!! “:bakla ka ba?” hehe…to tell you the truth I was really caught of guard, and my answer “Ewan”: hehe… that is so funny… hay! Right there and then I could have said yes and let it be ng matapos na, I am happy of what I am, at first I regret being like this but what can I do? Im tired of pretending to be straight, im tired of hearing the question bakla kaba?, I just want to be me, and there is nothing wrong if your gay or bisexual or what ever it is…diba? As long as your not killing or hurting someone ok lang naman diba?….and besides i am so happy with the relationship I have right now, because finally I have found someone who love me and really make me happy, I can say that now I know how it feels to be love back, not the kind of love that I have before that I feel that im the only one who is making the effort to make them happy…

I want to tell it all to my mom but there are some some stuff that’s holding me back…dibale sa sususnod I should have a straight answer to her question! And bahala na kung anong mangyayari!!!!

Mahal ko pag nabasa mo to pls wag mo ako alalahanin , don’t think about my situation here, alam mo nanaman to and I know you’ll understand…

Hay nakaka frustrate talaga…ganyan talaga ang buhay! As I say to my self “ you just have to make the most out of it!!!”

Sunday, September 10, 2006

September 10 (a special day)

hay...all i can say is ang saya ng araw na to! as in...

today is the first time na nakapunta ang mahal ko sa bahay namin!
and i can say that everything turn out well...
so the long wait is all worth it, kasi kanina talagang grabe sa saya!!!
pero syempre kung ano man ang nang yari sa amin..sa amin nalang yon...hehe

ang isa pang kinatutuwa ko is that my mom really treat my love as if matagal na silang magkakilala...
my mom is so sweet sa mahal ko na parang my mom can sense na the person im with is special to me (hindi nya kasi alam yung relationship namin) which is great because before my mom is not like that to all of my ex's...(kumusta naman yon diba? hehe)...and you know what's really weird? after my mahal left my mom ask me "ano sa tingin mo impression sa akin ni...?" waw!
my mom is never like that to all my ex's (again hehe)! he never ask that question to me before!!! (kumusta naman yon! hehehe) at eto pa ang isa pang weird...sabi ng mom ko "oh pumunta kayo ng simbahan para naman makilala si...ng patron st natin para lagi sya gabayan sa pag punta dito! (san kapa!) waw talaga!...
the feeling is so good, that its so hard to explain...

mahal ko, i want you to know that i really, really enjoy your visit, masasabi ko na worth it sya, matagal man tayon di nag kita pero tignan mo naman kung gano tayo ka saya kanina...mahirap mag paalam nung huli kasi medyo bitin, pero alam ko marami pang masasayang moment ang magagawa natin dito sa amin...mahal na mahal kita....thank you so much mahal ko i really appriciate na nag punta ka and you take the time to visit me here despite of your busy sched...

thank you for showing me the positive effect of love...

AYAYATEN KA!!!

Sunday, September 3, 2006

Pain and Disappointment

There’s always pain and disappointment when you fall in love….and in every relationship you learn something different or you experience something that will really leave a mark to your life…but what’s important is you learn something from it…and try your very best not to do the same mistake…

My partner send this kowt to me and I can say that it’s true…

There’s Always pain and disappointment
When falling in love.
But continue sharing your love
Because the more you love
The more you’ll get to know your self…
Because every person you love
Becomes your
Reflections…


Naks naman hehe…well ganon talaga pag mahal mo isang tao…iintindihin mo sya o mas lalawakan mo pa ang pang unawa mo para sa kanya…isipin mo nalang na may reason sya kaya nagawa nya yon…yup masakit yung ginawa mo, pero na appreciate ko na nag sabi ka sa akin ng totoo (at hindi mo ako pinaniwala sa isang kasinungalingan) and ang importante don alam mo na nag kamali ka…pinatawad na kita mahal ko…mahalaga ka sa akin at katulad mo ayaw ko ring mawala ka sa akin…

Lets grow together and learn something with each other…in that way we can deepen our relationship.
Always remember that I’ll always be here for you…


Mahal when you came into my life talagang everything falls into places...alam mo yan di ba (=()…Mahal na mahal kita sobra…ikaw ang aking asawa…ikaw ang aking lakas ang aking inspirasyon at nag bibigay sigla sa buhay ko! (Naks!!!!)

Kayat ko nga maamuam nga pampanunuten ka nga kinanayon…ayayatin ka mahal…


Never doubt someone's love for you.
If you find someone imperfections
let it be.
If you survived the pain the happiness is satisfying.
Never find the perfect love
beacause love wiht out pain is imposible...

Saturday, September 2, 2006

sa sobrang ka kulitan....

Last Aug 26,06
Kanina sa sobrang ka kulitan ko sa mahal ko eh may nasabi ako na im sure some how eh na upset xa, nasabi ko kasi na hindi ko nararamdaman na namimis nya ako samantalang kagabi tinawagan pa nya talaga ako, tapos nun ayaw pa nya ako na patulugin ng maaga dahil gusto pa nya na makipag kwentuhan kahit sa text, tpoz nun bago matulog tumawag ulit xa para mag good nyt sa akin…sa paglalambing ko sa kanya na upset ko tuloy xa…hihi…sorry po mahal…mis lang talaga kita, alam ko na nahihiripan ka na pag sabayin ang pag aaral mo at ako, tapoz eto pa ako na ngungulit (=( )..

Mahal ko I want you to know na mahal na mahal kita…na miss na miss na kita im sure naman na alam at nararamdaman mo yun…d bale promise mo naman sa akin na babawi ka sa susunod…hindi na ako makapag hintay (=() pag nakita talaga kita hahablutin kita at yayakapin ng mahigpit! Wahahaha…

Kanina nasabi ko sa sarili ko na I thought I knew it all when it comes to relationship, hindi pala, I thought na mature na ako pero minsan mas imature pa ako sa mahal ko(lalo na pag nag lalambing ako sa kanya para talagang bata) eh sya tong masbata sa akin…well ganun talaga ako pag mahal ko isang tao nag babata bataan ba hehe…it works for my mom kasi hehe…naisip ko kanina na oo nga pala ang ikababagsak ng isang tao ay yung feeling nya alam na nya lahat sa buhay, I have so much to learn when it comes to relationship, every person that I love is different from the other and in every relationship I learn something, good or bad nakakatulong naman…minsan lang talaga im so makulit and imature…

Mahal I love you so much…and pls don’t worry your self about the friends that I have…they all know that I only love one person…and that is YOU!

Ayayaten ka!