Thursday, April 29, 2010

Down days

Things are lighter now, last week is really hard for me and for nonoy, we both have our burden at home, last Monday night April 26 after nonoy and i left our house to go to work, my dad had a fight with one of our neighbor for saying that i am now in a relationship with a guy, i can just imagine how my dad felt during that day, i know its hard for some father to accept that the only son that he has is gay and im not even out so somehow it really hurt his feeling, my mom told me what happen , after that incident my dad went home furious with my mom, im sure he said some hurt full words at her because when my mom is telling me the story she was crying... i know how my dad act when he is angry and sometimes the word that he say can shatter even the strongest heart...dad is blaming my mom because she let me do what ever i want... My dad was really angry because he thought that me and nonoy are hugging each when he saw us on my room that time which we are not, nonoy and i are aware of our action because we know that at any moment my dad can take a peek on my room and might see something that can lead him to think that there is something going on, i know how my dad think and its not good...so he told my mom about that incident and my mom ask me if that is true, at that time i could have said yes but i hold back because if ever i admit it im afraid that my mom might not let nonoy come to the house and at that time i though that its not he right time to say it...

After that incident i cant help but to cry and my mom ask me why im crying, if she only new that the reason is because im afraid that nonoy might not be able to sleep here again and if she only knew that my relationship with him is more than just friends, as much as i want to admit it to my mom something is holding me back.
I slept early the tuesday morning crying and hoping that when i woke up everything will be ok, but that never happen, i only have a few hrs of sleep and on that day i decided to leave early, i went to hypermaket near to our office i try to forget what happen but it keeps on bothering me, with only 3hrs of sleep i decided to just head to the office and sleep on the quarter, i texted my Team Lead that i will be on half day and i also text nonoy that ill be in the quarters, i cried and i really felt like i am alone that day i decided not to let nonoy know about my situation in the house since he him self have his own problem too, but i know my self, im not good in hiding my emotion especially when im angry or upset.. medyo nag tampo ako kay nonoy but as i promise to him that if in case that i am upset i would tell him why...so i did... and beside nonoy is my partner he deserve to know what is happening to me of all people dapat siya ang makaka alam dahil siya ang higit sa lahat ang makaka intindi sa akin...he is my strength and my happiness... that day nonoy is really worried buti nalang nasa tabi ko siya, if he only knew how much i appreciate what he did...cguro kung pwede lang ni hug na niya ako ng mahigpit to let him know that i really love him...
so after two days of feeling down i decided that i think its about time to change my mood since i dont want to dwell with the dramas of life i know things happen for a reason...i may not know it now but someday i will...
with all this im lucky to have nonoy at my side supporting and making me strong i know we both have our own cross to carry pero im sure everything will be ok...
nonoy thank you for being there for me sa saya man o sa lungkot lagi ka nariyan to make me happy to support me and to love me... i love you soo much...i really really do...

Saturday, April 17, 2010

Nonoy + Yuyan = Yanyan ♥


I honestly dont know how to react when nonoy gave me a surprise last Friday (April 16) he was so quiet at that time when he arrives in the office (maybe because he was surprise that our friend Ethel was there) i dint even notice it at first that he was there, but anyway i greeted him and his kinda silent, and he was like "yuyan i have something to give you later and i hope you will like it" and i was like so excited to know kung anu man yung surprise na iyon, he is asking me to think of a cute name na pwede naming ipangalan sa kanya and he came up with the name "yanyan" i was really excited to see yanyan and finally nung inilabas na siya ni nonoy i was like "waw!" it was the cutest teddy bear ever! and the teddy is holding a heart with the word Love written on it...that time i was like OMG nonoy is so sweet, if only i can hug them both at that time and kiss nonoy just to show him how i really love and Appreciate what he did, It was my first time to receive a cute teddy bear from some one who loves me and someone i really really really love, that time my heart is over flowing with joy and if only i can scream i will and i will tell everybody how much i love nonoy and how lucky i am to have him...that Friday shift was one of the best shift ever not to mention memorable din, it was also the birth of our yanyan, now i have something na makakatabi ko every night and when i hug yanyan para ko na rin na hug ang mahal kong nonoy...


So after our shift nonoy and i went to the mall, since its our rest day and we just had our salary we decided to shop a little ^__^ and its been a long time since napunta kami ng mall heheh

Our first stop is at Banchetto, i believe that our last Banchetto was last year of December i think its our product training during that time and it was nonoy's first time to dine at Banchetto, during that time we are just friends and we are with Mitch and Ethel...so anyway we had Sea food rice with aligue which is super spicy (i forgot how spicy aligue can be since its been a long time na hindi na ako nakaka kain nun hehe), we ate at Ortigas park, yun nga lang super init kasi spicy yung food and every time im eating spicy food i sweat a lot, thank goodness i have some paper tissue with me cuz if not ill be super haggard hehe...after that we rest a little, kulitan and xemper picture picture, super kulit ng mga pic namin hihi









after that nag withdraw muna kami ng money sa may Wynsum which is my former building during my sitel days then we went straight to St Francis to look for some goodies! our first stop is at the shoe department...there i a lot of cute and affordable shoes at St Francis but of course you wont expect those shoes to last for long since some of those shoes are just Korean made pero who care's right? hehe... nonoy bought the same shoes that i had last year yun nga lang the price compare to last year is much higher today but never the less it was a good bargain ^__^ and the Lacoste shoe fits Nonoy perfectly!
After ng Shoes we went down to canvas for some cute cellphones, nonoy is planning to change his cp so i help him in finding an affordable one pero maganada, we went across this stall in which i saw this cellphone na i really like its a nokia phone...its a flip open phone and you can twist the lcd to 180 degrees and the camera is at the side, the cool thing about it is that you can see your self when your taking a picture which i really like! nonoy was able to get it for only 900 plus his old cell and the he added 100 for the headset...i was rally happy for nonoy at that time kasi i know he deserve those perks since he is a hard working guy not only that mabait pa na anak he deserve to have good things in life!... so anyway that cellphone is much better than the one we saw in Angono!



After that fun Shopping at St Francis time to go to the biggest mall in ortigas..SM Mega Mall waaaa!!!
Our First stop is at Bench i was hoping to buy a cute polo shirt in bench kaso most of the polo shirt there have map on the Philippines print on the side and Ninoy and Cory's face which i dont like...i was like kailan ba matatapos yung season ng print na yan? heheh so anyway i saw this cute bag and i was like wow! i can put all my kikay stuff at this bag, very fashionable pa xa and its cheap! i can also put my wallet, cellphone and psp on the bag!

we also went to Penshoppe and Folded and Hung were we try different clothes! yung nga lang medyo out of our range so gang fit nalang kami!


after sa F&H we visit Watson one of my fav shop to buy personal product...dapat bibili ako ng veet hair removal pero since i have read a lot of bad comments sa products hindi ko nalang tinuloy...natatakot din kasi ako na baka mamaya eh mangyari sa aking yung nangyari sa kanila hehehe...
last time i bought this gloves from watsons that you use for bathing and it was really nice so bought one again para hindi na ako palipat lipat ng glove sa kamay hehe...since paubos na rin ang lip balm ko bumili na rin ako ng isa pati narin ponds!



at that time i thought wala na akong clothes na mabibili since wala naman kaming nakitang affordable na maganda, buti nalang i saw this mint store and they have a sale, i was aiming to buy a new shirt pero mas ok pala mabibili namin ni nonoy...he bought a new polo shirt with red patter which look good at him! and nonoy pick this long sleeve shirt for me na may stripe pattern na ok yung fit! nonoy knows how pick a clothes!, it was only for 250 and nonoy was shock kasi akala nya eh itwas around 500 or something!

So after that medyo sumakit ulo ko kasi may pinapaliwanag ni nonoy about money and i was not able to get it kasi medyo nalito ako hihi...pag dating kasi sa ganun mahina talaga ako hehe buti nalang nonoy is patient enough to explain things to me so nagets ko rin naman...medyo matagal nga lang hehehe pati mahal ko napagod din hihi sorry talaga ^__^

After that umuwi na kami...nakakapagod man ang araw na yun pero very rewarding naman especially on nonoys part....he deserve to have a little fun and break...

i love you sooo much mahal ko

Thursday, April 8, 2010



i almost forgot our second monthsary because the day before our special day Nonoy is not feeling well, he is experiencing muscle pain on his neck running through his face, few hours before our shift he cant handle the pain anymore so i suggested that since its our last break that we should see the nurse in the clinic he was given an hour break to rest until the pain subside he was advice to see a specialist so that they can check what is wrong with his neck... im really worried that time i dont want to see him in pain...after an hour pinabalik na siya nung nusre sa station namin and buti nalang 30 mins nalang log out na siya...after our shift we decided to go to the clinic in Angono for check up, kaso he was advised to go back at around 4pm, so we decided na umuwi na para makapag pahinga na kami...during that time nawala sa isip ko na April 7 na and its our 2nd month together, buti nalang nung nasa jeep kami nonoy greeted me that its our special day na pala... im really sorry mahal muntik ko na makalimutan.

ang hindi lang alam ni nonoy is that last week palang ay inuumpisahan ko na yung video na gift ko sa kanya, tapos na siya kaso hindi ko na convert para mailipat ko sa psp ko...nung shift namin nag decide na rin ako na ill let him see the video either friday or sunday...buti nalang hindi ko pa naipakita inedit ko ulit yung video dahil marami kaming new pics na gusto kong ilagay and so far ok naman ang kinalabasan ^__^ i just hope he like it

that night nonoy gave me card and what he said on that card really touches my heart kung alam lang niya how many times i read it ^__^ and during the time na binabasa ko yun talagang tumaba yung puso ko...napaka swerto ko sa kanya dahil ako ang mahal niya, ngayon lang may nag padama sa akin ng ganoon...^_^

on that card he told me "ever since you came to my life, doon ko lang naramdaman yung unique love which was really different from my past relationships and i can say that you've exceeded, shown and proven that your love for me is really uncompairable and unconditional. napatunayan mo yun sa akin sa bawat araw na mag kasama tayo at dahil doon i can say to my self how much im contented enough with you and ayaw ko na pong mag hanap pa ng iba." alam mo noy ngayon lang din ako nakahanap ng mag mamahal sa akin na marunong ma kuntento...thank you mahal ko ^__^

Saturday, April 3, 2010

How i Celebrate Good Friday

Start of my week again and the best part is my rest day is split to thursday and sunday yey! ok seriouly that is not something to be happy about...but what can i do even if i curse the person who did our sched i still need to ff it.



i had a great time last Good friday i spend it with my mom and nonoy, its nonoys first time to watch a "prosisyon" in our place and some how i think he enjoyed it, its kinda tiring beacuse we stood there for like 2hrs but its all worth it, he is the one who's taking the video and he is getting good at it. He witness the famouse "giwang giwang" which can only be seen in our place, medyo nabigla siya kasi hindi niya alam na ganuon pala yun, thank god no one is hurt ^__^, we also went to "sinakulo" to buy some food, it was fun going there nonoy and my mom had a lot of funny moments hihi , after all that fun we hed home at arounf 10ish im not sure but it was really late, my dad had no idea that nonoy will be spending the night with us but his ok with it, yun nga lang medyo nag show yung pag ka masungit nya nung ibinaba nya yung matress at kung pano niya ito inabot kay nonoy, buti nalang hindi siya natakot, but i warn him naman na dad is masungit...
kahit na hindi kami mag katabi nun sa bed masaya na ako kasi kasama ko parin siya sa room ko, hindi man namin nagawa na matulog ng mag ka yakap at least nasa isang room kami, anyway nung natutulog na naman si daddy lumipat ako sandali sa tabi nya at kinulit ko xa ng konti ^__^.
Nung umaga akala ko uuwi na siya since may pasok pa xa ng 12mn thank god my mom suggested that he stay for a while and sumabay nalang xa pag paalis na ako since my shift is at 7:30, that morning i had him watch the movie love of siam but i think hindi naman nya na appriciate kasi thai movie yun and kailangan pa niyang mag basa ng sub title, and its a gay movie so hindi naman xa mahilig sa ganun, so anyway ayaw ko naman ipilit yon so i just tought him how to play god of war sa psp, while his playing maedyo inaantok narin ako non so natulog na ako, next thing i know is that 5pm na and i need to prepare for work...

as usuall going to work is lonely so itinulog ko na lang, this week 11:30 na ako, ask kaya ako ni nonoy na mag sabay kami since 12 naman shift niya im just 30 mins ahead, kaso baka ma rush siya and na nunood pa kasi siya bago umalis...sigh