The Hardest Part

Whats the hardest part in ending a relationship?

Not the feeling of letting go...

Not the part of goodbye...

But going through every damn day

and having to remember it...

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ayaw ko lokohin ang sarili ko na ok na ako kahit hindi pa, pinipilit na kalimutan ang mga ng yari pero maraming mga bagay ang nag papaalala lalo na kung kailang ka umiiwas dun mo pa lalong nararamdaman, naiinis ako kasi gusto ko xa kumustahin pero maspinipili ko na wag nalang, ewan ko ba...sabi ko hindi na ako iiyak o malulungkot pero kagabi hindi ko napigilan na umiyak...mis na mis n kita, and gusto kitang makita o marinig ang boses mo...nahihirapan ako kalimutan ka...sabi nila wag na kitang masyadong isipin dahil hindi ko rin daw sure na iniisip mo rin ako, pero alam ko naiisip mo rin ako, i want you to know na hindi ka fool when it comes to love, lahat tayo fool pag dating doon (tignan mo ako hehe)...i hope ok ka lang...alam mo ba im also a fool kasi im still hoping that one day babalik ka sa akin...

25

Things that I have experience now that I am 25… This morning while having my usual breakfast (coffee and bread), bigla nalang pumasok sa isip ko yung mga na eexperience ko now that I am 25, I can say na sobrang daming bago talaga and I thank God for giving me such experience, he is really making my life more exciting, meaningful and full of adventures. Siguro if im still a teacher half of this, hindi ko mararanasan… In terms of career, since nung napasok ako sa call center ang daming bago ang nangyari sa akin, dito ko nakita ang difference of being a teacher and a CSR. Ang dami kong naging kaibigan at nakilalang tao, people who I thought never exist are there. Dito ko rin naranasan na mag byahe araw araw at umuwi ng disoras ng gabi. Which is kinda cool hehe… Oo nga pala naranasan ko din na mag alok ng credit card at matangal sa dati kong company kasi nahuli ako nung boss ko na nag aaply sa ibang company hehe..thank God kasi kung hindi ng yari yon wala ako sa present company ko ngayon hehe… When it comes naman sa pakikisama sa tao I can say na hindi na ako mahiyain katulad ng dati now I learn to express my self, and dahil dun marami akong nagiging kakilala at nagiging kaibigan yung iba nga close friend na, pero syempre may makikilala ka paring tao na mahirap na pakisamahan pero kailangan nalang intindihin… In terms naman sa love life ko, well ngayon ko lang talaga naranasan ang positive and negative effect of love. Ang sarap pala talagang umibig at ibigin, lagi kang masaya, Inspired ka, pero naranasan ko rin yung negative effect nito ganon pala yon now I can say that nakakarelate na talaga ako dun sa sinasabi ng mga break up song dati kasi di naman ako ganto pag nakikipag hiwalay sa isang relationship, ngayon lang talaga kasi ako nag seryoso tapos ganon pa ang naging ending (ang sakit hehe joke). Ngayon ko talaga naranasan na umiyak ng buong araw, mawalan ng gana sa trabaho, pumangit sa sobrang stress at kakaiyak, pero somehow na survive ko sa tulong ng mga loving and supporting friends of mine (naks)…so ngayon medyo natatakot ako na sumubok ulit na pumasok sa isang relationship natatakot ako na msaktan ulit at maranasan yung pinag dadaanan ko hanggan ngayon , ewan ko ba…lilipas din siguro ito…basta… Minsan naiisip ko na malungkot pala ang mag isa pero mas malungkot pala pag nag iisa ka dahil iniwan ka…(don’t worry ok na ako…(=() nasabi ko lang po iyon hehe…wala po ako galit sayo) Exciting ang 25 ko, ano pa kayang bago ang mararanasan ko? Kung ano manyon….go ahead make my day! hehe All I can say Is everyday is a new adventure for me, lahat ng ito will help me to become a better person today and in the future…naks hehe Thank you God!

The Feeling of...

Its been so long since I updated my blog…and a lot of things happen…I wish I could tell all but some things are better left unsaid…but there is one thing I’m sure I want to share….the feeling of being in love! Yup love is the only thing I’m into right now…I have few relationship and back then I thought it was love…well don’t get me wrong I love them all…. but now it’s a whole different feeling…I love watching romantic comedy films and after watching it you feel good in a way….u feel what the movie want you to feel… then what?…. in real life, its different….not everything is a happy ending story…

But now I can say that I have felt it (the thing)….yes…I did (I’m a human being! I can feel!)…it is a completely different feeling….something that you have never felt before….the first time we met I thought we don’t have a connection…but as the day passed by we are getting intimate with each other….that day I don’t want to go home and just stay with that person…I have never felt it before….the next day I cant stop thinking of that person…I Want to contain my self and just be cool about it but its hard!!!…thank God that person also feels the same…and as the story goes on….we now have each other….

That person shows me the meaning of love….that love gives meaning to your life….love makes you appreciate simple things…..love is enjoying every moment that your together…love is sweet….love is patience…love is everything!!!…..thank YOU for showing me what love is….i never thought that a simple holding hands can be very special…..that the road you walk into every day can have a special meaning…a special memory that when you walk in that same road again it will never be the same…I really cant explain it!!! Ha ha I cant believe my self….I’m in love….I’m really in love!!!

Love is a risk you have to take(and I took it)….if you love someone don’t hold back let, them feel what you feel…don’t be afraid to love…

Thank you, MY LOVE….I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ^_^

this one is for the both of us....

It is indeed inspiring to live our lives for someone who we hope would, one day , share forever with us. But if this hope will be based on feelings and not fact , then we might just wake up one day being sorry for wanting too much.

You are afraid to wake up to a bad dream and you want to give up a fight which you haven't fought yet. Why don't you express your feelings and let see beyond your silence. Communication is the first step in building a relationship. Without this vital element, all and every effort would just be like kisses in the wind.

If you really like a person. Give your best shot. See how he/she reacts and take your next step from there. You can hold on and wait for love or say goodbye and move on.

Turning our backs on someone who inspires us should not be a choice but an option. We give up only when we have tried and we should keep on trying until we exhaust all our reason to hang on.

Let us always remember that it is better to lose a battle that we fought than to lose a battle that we never had had the courage to face.

St. Monique

Its been raining for days…and I hate it, everything I see is wet and sticky that’s why I hate it when it rains…when your walking the mud gets into your short…you have to bring umbrella its cold basta its very hard to move talaga when its raining…the only thing I love is that when its raining you’ll have a good night sleep at night…right? Last Monday I went to St. Monique to apply for a job and also to say goodbye to my friend Jose who is leaving to go to Riyadh …he return some stuff to me like CD’s and magazine…during his stay here I always look forward on seeing him and going to his place…because their you have a sense of independence because Jose has his own bachelor pad…and I also have the chance to see the House of Nene the first winner of Pinoy Big Brother, so I took a picture of his crib and I hope ill have the chance to post it here so you can see it…^_^ Hay saying goodbye to a friend is really hard esp when that person is close to you… Anyway back to my application on that the the girl who is the assistant principle to L’ Ecole Du St. Monique told me that I have to complete me requirements…so she ask me to pass it this week…so Yesterday (jan 25) I go there again to pass it…tapos pag kapasa ko she told me to wait for her call because their screening will start on Feb…so I have to wait pa…

Stupid hirits

What is the common question when you attend a get together or a wedding of an old college classmate? Eh di ano pa! “O, bat wala ka pang girlfriend?” (hay its hard talaga if ur a celebrity…^_^)
Kakarating ko lang, umatend ako ng wedding ng college classmate ko si Charale, she is part of my tropa during that time…and kanina is her special day, buntis na xa 8 months na, its hard to believe kasi she is a very shy and simple girl (nasa loob pala ang kulo hihi Joke) so nung nakita ko xa kanina…wala lang ^_^ nadun din yung mga ka major ko dati and they all have the same comment about me “Ryan mukhang totoy ka parin…parang walang nag bago sayo…ang cute mo parin! (joke!)…tumaba lang daw ako ng konte at mukhang bata parin daw, xempre tuwa namn ako ^_^ ibig sabihin d pa ako mukhang matanda, sa kanila kasi maraming nag bago, may tumaba, lalong pumangit (JOKE)…at nag mukhang…and then the question “my girlfriend ka na ba?”, “O, bat wala ka pang girlfriend?” hay! Ano nga ba ang smart response sa mga stupid hirits?
“Are you kidding? Im having such a blast being single!”…tama ba sinagot ko?…hay dbale sana kung maganda yung nagtanong d naman ^_^.
24 palang ako and marami pang tao ang mag tatanong non sa akin…its hard! (if you know what I mean)…d bale guys it will come! Intay lang kayo ^_^
tapos kanina nadun yung x gf ko (which is a good friend of mine) kasama yung bago nya bf na classmate namin wala lang…ok naman sakin…it means nag move on na ako!…d naman nya sinabi sa aakin pero I know…
anyway before I went there nag punta muna ako sa St. Monique and natupad ko na rin na makita ang bahay ni Nene…ang ganda, nadun nga yung napanalunan nyang nissan titanium ang ganda…nag picture picture nga ako don..hihi…di bale pag na pa prin ko post ko dito…hay masaya din ang araw na to…basta masaya…^_^