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hello there! its really been a while since i updated this page but dont worry during my avail time i was able to save some of my blogs on my e mail so if i have the chance to post is like today ill do it so here it goes...


well its been a while since i open my blog and its already november now...few more weeks and it christmas already! yey!
nonoy and i celebrated our 9th monthsary last nov 7 few more months and we are going to celebrate our 1 year anniversary! yey...
also last nov 9 at work celebrated our 1 year anniversary! we dine at kfc at emerald and we took a lot of pictures and its all in my facebook...

time flyies when your having fun...though there are some hard times but ofcourse there is always the fun part...thats life...

well as for me i still have some issues that im still trying to overcome im sure time will come and ill be more confident on my looks...

as the new year is fast approaching im thinking...what are the things that i would like to achieve or to change...well for one...i would really find time to look for a work overseas any country would do for me just as long as i can save for me to start the apartment business that im thinking off...if things get better there ill have nonoy with me so he can also help his family...
im also thinking that next i would start to exersice my tummy is already getting big...or should i say getting bigger...i think its time for me to do something this time if i would like that to happen i just need to balance things out...so ill corss my fingers to that ^__^...
im also crossing my fingers for the net book that im planning to buy on my 13th month...

before i get excited for next year this month our team wil be going to a hot spring and nonoy will be coming with us...so its our first out of town trip so im excited, lets just hope that the weather will also cooperate...and also finally it pushes through the plan that we planing way back last year..it may not be on palawan or in coron but what important is we are with our love one, we will be going to bagio this coming november 27 and 28...well i do hope that they approve our leave first before i get exited but as of now no feedback yet from the rtr...they need to approve that first heheh


ill make sure that i will be posting some picture when we got back and hopefully with the use of my new laptop hehe


nov 11

12:25 am im physically at work but my mind is wondering some were else, i want to go back to bed and sleep, i want to go to hongkong basta there's a lot of things that i would like to do and im a bit frustrated that i cant do it...hehe well tulad nga ng madalas kong sabihin "we'll get there in time"

im not feeling this day, para bang ibinuhos lahat ng katam sa mundo at ibinigay lahat sa akin kaya wala ako sa mood mag work, nakakasawa na kasi, gusto ko ng maiba yung ginagawa ko, hayz eto nanam ako im sure time will come and i will regret saying this pero sana hindi...
if its that easy to go to other country i could have done it way back...im somehow tired of saying to my self that time will come kahit na napatunayan ko na na sa maraming pag kakataon na it does come yun nga
lang medyo matagal...but somehow its worth it...

hayz im talking to an indian customer and they are worst customer ever especially if their last name is patel or sanjjiv or what ever

auto fail ^__^

9:03 on my avaya few more mins before i start my shift again...well to start off this shift i was able to check my quality scores and to my surprise i was able to get two auto fail on parts and service ^__^ hayz patay na naman ako nito sa TL ko...ahaha first audit ko pa naman yun ngayong october hehe ganun pa...hayz kailangan ko ayusin and bawi nalang next time!
i made a blog entry yesterday but i was not able to up load it, sayang hehe. 2nd day na wala ang favorite TL ko and i could not be more hapier im sure kung narito ang tingin na naman sa akin nun dahil na ka kuha ako ng 2 auto fail...buti na lang nasa bacolod siya for a week... rest day ko na bukas or later since suspended ako due to may AWOL wed and thurs yun hehe first time ko ma suspend sa work and so far ok naman ganun pala yung feeling in a way parang ok na rin kasi makakapag pahinga ako, im just thinking on how i will spend it...well time to go!

Finally our first ever home video...or should i say room video ^__^

vlog 10-05-10

i Miss you Nonoy

hagard na talaga ako tignan...i was hoping to have a good sleep earlier pero that did not happen...parang hindi rin nakatulong yung sleepwell na ininom ko...ang babaw ng tulog ko, hindi lang siguro ako sanay matulog mag isa dun sa room ng wala si nonoy...
i really miss him and im worried kung anu na ba condition niya, he has dengue and i hope when i go there later ill be seing a happy and well nonoy, yung happy at parang walang sakit na nonoy...
i know its a cliche but sana ako nalang nag ka dengue at wag na siya, nahihirapan kasi ako makita siya lalo na nung mga panahon na nilalagnat siya, how i wish i can atleast get half of what he feeling...what i like about him is that kahit na ganun cheerfull parin siya minsan nga ako na nagagalit sa sobrang kulit niya ayaw ko lang naman na mabinat ulit siya...how i wish i can be like that masaya parin kahit na may sakit...
i miss you nonoy ko...pagaling ka po...
i love you so much ^__^

28

tomorrow ill be turning 29 and every year before i add one more year on my age i look back and remeber how i spend my 28 years here on earth...
well it was a bad start for me when i turned 28 when it comes to having a relationship, i dated a guy who never really want to have a relationship with me, so i enter an open relationship with him and put my heart on the line, as expected i fall for the guy but i was never became his priority...i dont want to go on details but he broke my heart into pieces and my friend rocky know's how hard i cried for that guy...
when it comes to my career...well its really not that good as well i left my previous company which somehow i regret...me and rocky went through a series of interview just to find the right job and the right company....
at 28 i was able to experienced independence which was a good thing...finally im on my own but occasionally or every restday ill go home in binangonan...
i think it was september when my mom was accidentaly hit by a sigle motor and as a result her right knee was enjured thank god nothing serious happen and during that time i dont have a job so i was able to help when it comes to doing some house chores that my mom would normally do...it was hard seeing her like that...i mean my mom went through a lot especially loosing her eye sight on her right eye and seeing her in that vulnerable position is really heart breaking especially on my part...my mom doesnt deserves that...she is a good person, a good mom and a loving wife to my father so somehow you'll question why those things happened to her...but who am i to question, right? as they say things happen for a reason and as of now im still searching for that answer...
few months after my birthday we experienced the worst flood had ever happened in binangonan...it was a disaster...everything was wet and our rice business was jepordy...after that my lola past away T__Thayz...its hard for me and for my mom But hey! as they say there's always a rainbow after the rain to be honest i tried to be strong for myself and for my mom, we had experienced those hardships but God is good all the time.
I think it was November when things started to get on track again...i was accepted as a customer service rep in Transcom and till now im still here and i am happy...
The month of November is memorable to me i was able to meet good friends...real friends on this company... December...January was the best...rocky may not be with me anymore to support me but i was able to find good ones who in good times and bad times standing on my back and never leave me...
First week of february was the best Month on my 28 years here on earth i know i sound exagerated but its true...i was able to meet the man who will change my life forever...
Nonoy came to my life unexpectedly...he changed my life and he changed the way i look at love...before i thought no one can love me for who i am i thought no one can accept me...but he proved me wrong...
we went through a lot of trials especially on our first month, it was hard for both of us...we somehow loose some of our friends but as the song goes "it will all get better in time" and i can say now that things are now back to normal...it may not be the way it was before but its ok...
when it comes to our relationship we have our differences but we made sure to it that we fix the problem and talk about it rather than arguing its hard but we live each day to the best or worst we can...
so now that im turning 29 im excited what life has to offer to me...
im excited...
sabi nga LIVE. LAUGH. LOVE. ^__^

Personal Demons

its been a while since i last updated my blog, i have been busy enjoying life, i still have my demons to conquer and sometimes its unvarable... i hate my self sometimes or most of the time...i am hurting my self in the weirdest possible way...my thoughts are killing me and sometimes its hard to find comfort in your own skin. how i wish i have a personal shrink that i can run to everytime i need someone to put a sense on my head...that would be much easier...
i hope i can survive this...which i know i can...

we went to med central in galeria yesterday and i notice that most of the nurses working in the area have a clear aura on their faces, no trace of stress...i can feel their calmness...i envy that calm feeling that they are emiting through me...then i ask my self if i ever felt that...maybe...but it was a long time ago...i need to feel like that again...and i want it as soon as possible.