In the kind of world that I have few relationship survive, you can consider your self lucky if you and your partner last for 3 years…sum would even be happier if they reach 1 year.
everytime i visit site that promotes bisexuality there is a lot of single guys, they have their own reason why they go there, to find love, to find someone who will fuck them or to look for someone who they can fuck, and majority of them look for sex...
So the question is, do most bisexual settle for a relationship or they just go for SEB?, do some of them think that having a relationship is just a waste of time and effort or they don’t want to get attach coz eventually they know that it will not last…or maybe some of them are shallow and don't really look for a deeper connection or simply they dont love the guy that much? or they dont want to get hurt by the thing called LoVe...
(this is only my opinion and how i see things so pls dont get me wrong
russel is a friend of mine, he is the kind of bi who dont believe in relationship, i ask him why not? he said he "i dont want to get hurt, i dont want commitment, all i want is sex..just plain sex" and that work for him...i can say that he is the Samantha Jones in our group, he have lots of guys but never take them seriously.
and as for me well i dont know...
in my case I never experience a year, or even half…the longest that I have would be 4 mo and after that it decrease to 2mo and then 1…what is wrong with that picture? Why is it that I cant stay in a relationship that would last for atleast a year? Do I suck in handling it? do i have the problem? i have no idea...what is it that im doing before that im not doing now...
after carefully analyzing, I guess here are some factors, one would be my work, Kc and Russ would tell me you cant have both at the same time, your successful in your career but you don’t have a love life or the other way around…you will consider your self lucky if you have career and love at the same time...second factor is the time, my schedule is at night so i would spend my day sleeping while most of the ppol roam around going on dates and finding the time to be with their love one, so i say to my self why not look in the same industry, so i did that, the second problem is we dont have the same restday so one would give up sleeping just for you to have a little time. i remember this one guy that i date before he said " if you want it you'll find time " and he never did what he say after that =)
I guess also the choices that I make and the decision that I do. I would meet guys or go on dates but I do not invest time and effort, coz I know that im going in circles, running around and I keep on tumbling down…
and maybe im looking for love in the wrong places…
or maybe im just making excuses...i dont know...
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