When?

Eto na naman ako, nag iisa, and usually pag nag iisa ako, dun pumapasok yung mga gusto kong gawin sa buhay ko at anu yung mga plan ko. So far, till now, all i do is dream. I see no action, wala ako ginagawa to get my dreams. Kaya eto, when i see other people na already doing what they like and they are in a better position, i cant help but to be jealous, then sasabihin ko na nmn sa sarili ko na kaya ko din yun, pero sa katagalan nawawala yung drive ko. I always start something then i never had the courage to finish it.

My mom always told me that "my time will come" and till now I am still waiting for that time. My fear is, dumating yung sinasabi niyang time and I am already old to enjoy it.

I hope this year, maka sunod ako kay nonoy sa Kuwait, I know that it will really help me a lot financially pag na punta ako dun, I want my life to be better, one of my fear is growing old and my life is miserable, wala na nga ako familya tapos im gonna die alone pa :( how sad is that?

What I learn today

Things that I should remember to have a good people as my down line.

WILLING is a powerful word

1. regardless of their age there is always an opportunity to learn something new.

2.make them realize that they will benefit during the learning process.

3.dont let the situation in your view point if they dont want to learn for it will frustrate you.

4. create a way to make them want to learn

5. help them realize what they want.

I almost forgot...that I have a blog :)

Kung hindi pa ako nag upload ng video sa youtube account ko, hindi ko pa makikita sa main page itong blog ko. Kawawa naman, buti pa si nonoy na uupdate nia yung blog niya. Feeling ko tuloy kinalimutan ko yung friend ko na dati lagi kong kausap at binubugahan ng sama ng loob... Bloggy sorry ha :) Since I dont have a job I will do my best to up date you.

Anyway just to give a highlight kung anu ang ng yari sa akin during my absence, well so far my life is doing great!

Sa love life, super ok! last Feb 7 nag celebrate kami ng 2nd Anniversary namin ni nonoy kasama ang iba naming mga kaibigan, sayang nga lang at yung iba ay hindi na kapunta. Gumawa din ako ng simple gift ko kay nonoy and eto na yun!!



Hays, parang kailan lang nag uumpisa kami haha...

since nag share narin ako ng video at nabangit ko kanina na nag upload ako ng video sa youtube, nakita ko yung iba kong video and all i can say is "what the hell" hahaha ang chaka, pero no regret naman, ni hide ko na yung iba na para akong ewan. One thing is for sure, I am happy na na video ko yung mga moment na yun kasi hindi na yung mangyayari ulit, sa lahat ng napanood ko itong video na to ang super nagustuhan ko.



Iba talaga samahan namin dito at super miss ko na silang lahat. I just dont like how i look in that video haha, na miss ko yung long hair ko :)

Sa career, well bakante ang lolo mo hahah kaka resign ko lang sa Telus and so far ang kina career ko ay yung vmobile namin, so far so good naman, kailangan ko lang na talagang lakasan ang loob ko to make this really work :).

so far yun nalang muna i share ko11:37 pm na and tatawagan ko ulit si nonoy at baka natulog na naman haha.

Curach, Maila and Felipe

Yesterday I thought that it will just be a typical restday for me, where in I just stay here at my Parents house the whole day and spend the rest of the day surfing the net, but I guess I was wrong. In my effort to change what i call typical, I texted my college friend Curach, I ask if i can visit him and Maila in their work place, since curach has been texting me last week asking when i would be here in Binangonan so i can help him on his computer problem and he would like to borrow some of my collection of Indie Film. So i did txt them and i did not receive any response. So lumabas parin ako because i need to withdraw some money since my mom is going to buy LPG and i dont have that much money on my wallet, pag uwi ko I receive a call from Curach saying na he just got my text and he is asking if i can still go there, at first medyo tinamad na ako pero nung sinabi nila na sila nalang pupunta, i change my mind...

So i went to to their work place which happen to be my former High School and na miss ko yung school, ang daming mga bata pa that time playing basketball, badminton, sipa and a lot more. Para tuloy na miss ko yung pagiging teacher. So nakita ko na si Curach na nasa 2nd floor and my college classmate Maila was there too and my god i miss them...so nag punta kami sa faculty nila and dun nag kwentuhan kami at tawanan to the max... So while we are in the peak of tawanan, Felipe who is my kinakapatid texted me saying that he will go to our place, and i told him na nasa BCC ako with Curach and Maila...so he went there... so after that nag paalam na ako kina Curah and Maila dahil sabi ko nga na iniintay ako ni Felipe sa labas, eh pauwi na din pala sila nun so sumabay na din sila sa akin, so kahit ayaw mag pakita ni Felipe eh nakita parin siya hahah...

So after that fun conversation with Curach and Maila, time to have some quality time with my kinakapatid, he told me that he is sik and need to be operated since there's polyps on intestine ( i forgot the exact part), I was sadden by what he told me, so that is the reason why he is so thin.

So after that tinapos ko na din yung mga picture nia na dapat na edit ko nun pa.

Rainy friday

Its been raining for days and im starting to hate it. Masarap nga matulog pero pag kailangan mo lumabas ang hirap naman kasi baha sa labas, everything is wet and muddy.

right now I am alone in our room and I am kinda sad kasi nonoy is not here, he is in a morning shift this week so we rearly be with each other, i know we live at the same house pero sandali lang kami nag kakasama T_T.

I plan on uploading a video kaso since mabagal internet ko im sure it will take forever to load it so ganto nalang pa sulat nalng kahit nakakatamad.

Right now while i am writing this i am listening to Esmee Denters Outta here... i love it hehe

something about the lyrics of the song i really like... I also love her look!

so anyway good bye for now ill try to sleep muna.

Things Happen for a reason

I always say that phrase when i dint get something that i want or things dint go my way, it is also the common phrase that i am saying to my friends when the same situation happen to them.

Last rainy Thursday Nonoy and i went to apply for a new job, we went to Sam's company for they are hiring Web merchandiser and the reason why i want to try it out is that it has a good pay and it is not that stressful, also i lo

ve surfing the net so i will have an advantage esp in making website for i have this blog and of course i want to learn something new, at that time i though ill have a different career path that i will take, so no more call center job for me, just the regular job with a good pay.

We arrived there i think 15 minutes before seven, we went to the 17 floor, the HR assist us, we took our exam, we had our initial interview with the HR then after that we waited for the Manager of the Web Merchandising account to interview us, Nonoy went first and i waited for 30 mins (i guess), then when Nonoy came he told me that there is only one available position left so we are not going to be with each other...So at that time i already felt the sadness because the dream that me and Noy working again together just like we were in Transcom faded... I proceed with my interview and i thought i did well, though my English grammar sucks hehe... so after that its up to the boss to pick between the two of us, the other one will be endorse to another account who would take in call but as they say its not that stressful since we are just going to call the

merchant and verified if the information they give out is correct. The manager told us that they will endorse us to hr and hr will text us.

After that we went to Mia's office at Edsa Central, Mia and Sam is working on the same company but they are not on the same Building, Sam is located at Octagon Building while Mia is at Edsa central Pavilion, We had our brunch at KFC and while we are eating Noy and I receive the text from HR and Noy got the position and i will be endorse to Merchant Rep. I was happy for Nonoy for getting the part because atlast he would have a job that is less stressful with a good pay, i mean he already went through hell at Transcom so this is a good opportunity for him. On my side it added to my frustration and reality hit me again that my dream of being us together working will not happen.

After our brunch we took some picture on Mia's phone and hed home and on our way i was silent, feeling the sadness that Noy and i will not be working together and during that time i also decided that i will turn down the offer as a Merchant Rep, for the reason that i dont want to take in calls again even if the work load is not that stressful, also that is one of the reason why i left my previous company and work at Telus as an email representative, atleast on my current job i dont feel the stress even if there is thousand of email waiting.

I just hope that i did the right decision...

We arrive home, rest for a while and for me to lessen the burden that i am feeling i cried, Nonoy comforted me and still asking me if i already made up my mind. I appreciate my Nonoy that time, he was hugging me, comforting me, sympathizing on what i am feeling, and he told me that i a already made up my mind he will support me and he told me that he will do his best for us to work together again, he said that if there would be an opening he would recommend me. During that time i cant help but to feel rejected, i felt that i messed up things or something in me is not pleasing that is why they did not pick me, i really hated that feeling and i dont want to be in that position again. I know im just sour graping on what happen because somehow i felt like im a looser. But of course i know that is not the way i should go because im being selfish, i admit that i am a bit jealous with Nonoy because he was pick over me and he will be working again with Sam and they can see Mia anytime and the pay is good, while i am stuck at my work that i somehow love its just that the pay is small.

So know i am over it, i will just re apply, and Nonoy told me that if there is he will be referring me so we can be together...

I know things happen for a reason, i may not know the reason now but sooner i will, probably this is not the right time for me to be there or something big is waiting for me..

Update!

Its really been a while since i last updated this blog, i know no one really bothers to read all my posting and up till now i still thinks its ok, this page will be my contribution to the world wide web, i know one day ill find time to read all the posting that i have put in here and remince all the good and the bad things that happen to me...

Enough of that long intro hehe, well just to update you guys, I am doing good, things on my personal and work life is doing good. I am now working with Telus as an email support agent, this is new for me and right now everything is faborable to me, i think its been a month now that all i do is play and transfer ticket, the reason for that is that the game i am supporting is not out yet so we dont have email to answer so while we are in the office all we do is to play the game and report any bug that we encounter while playing it...the only down side to this company is that i have low salary compare to Transcom, but i am not complaining about it.

My love life, well my relationship with Nonoy is stronger than ever and we love each other so much, i am happy that he came in to my life and i thank God about it, I am so lucky to have a loving husband, best friend, adviser, lover all wrap into one ^_^, I am still sad that we are not working in the same office and i am sad everytime i think that Nonoy is having a hard time taking calls and i am here updating my blog and doing nothing (for now) i always told him that how i wish he is with me so he wont feel all that stress.

So for now that's all i can write...ill try to update this blog as often as i can...

love love!