wahehehe

Iba pala talaga kapag ang ginagawa mo gusto mo at nag eenjoy ka, hindi mo ramdam ang pagod ng work, samahan mo pa ito ng maraming masasayang ofcm8 at isang close friend na talagang jive kayo sa ugali...ang masaya pa nito mag kasabay pa kayo umuwi , im really enjoying life as it is, may mga araw talaga na hindi maganda pero at the end of the day, pag inisip mo, may matututunan ka din dun sa bad day nayon, God is fair may araw xa na ibinibigay sa akin na talgang ma rerealize ko yung mga katangahan ko and because of that, natututo ako...

as i said before this is the best time of my life , marami man akong pinag daanan na mahihirap na bagay ngayong taon i can say that its all worth it, i learn a lot, and still everyday is a learning experience...

enjoy pa kasi mag papasko na, pag nag lalakad kami ni ate cathy pauwi nakaka aliw makita yung mga xmas lights at parol ang cute wahehehe...ilang araw na lang! yey! yung ngalang sa pasko wala akong special sum1, pero ok lang njoy naman sa pagiging single, and as of now family muna...saka na yun...tama ba?...

IM LOVING IT....PAPARAPAPA :D

all i can say is...

i love life....

i love my job...

i love my family...

i love my friends...

i love all the ppol who is around me...

i thank you God for always giving me a reason to live and be happy and contented with what i have, thank you also to those ppol who you introduce to me bec they teach me and give me diff experience that can really help me to become a better person...THANK YOU so much God for all the blessings

so now i can really say that this is life and "im loving it"

***Our 2nd Month***

Our second mo.

Dapat kahapon pa ako gagawa ng entry eh kaso my final quiz ako so xempre kainlangan unahin yon, ayaw ko naman bumagsak hehe magagalit ang mahal ko (=()…

Hay naka dalawang bwan na kami and and we are doing great I can say that our relationship is deeper and more meaningful…waw finally this is the kind of relationship that im looking and hoping for, so xempre kailangan na alagaan at pahalagahan (tama ba mahal?) hehe…

Second time na ng mahal ko na maka punta dito and this time talagang na enjoy namin yung time namin together, nagawa namin lahat ng gusto namin…pero ang na enjoy ko eh yung nakahiga lang kami tapos nakayakap kami sa isa’t isa habang nag kukwentuhan ng mga bagay bagay about the past, the future and the past participle hehe…ano paba at xempre walang katapusang kulitan…

Alam nyo ba guys na ang sweet ng mahal ko? Ang gift nya sa akin ay napakaganda and meaningfull, that was the first time someone gave a present na talagang may meaning…gusto ko sana I post yung letter nya sa akin para maipag malaki ko pero xempre akin nalang yon! Hehe, ako naman ang bigay ko na kanya eh yung bagay na makakapag paalala sa akin na magagamit nya, so pag suot nya yon eh kasama narin nya ako hehe…buti nalang at nagustuhan nya talaga sabi nya sa akin na mahilig xa mag collect ng mga ganun and every collection eh may meaning and special experience…

Xenxa na mahal ha mura lang kasi yan dibale pag natanggap na ako dun sa work ko eh I can give you sumthing na talagang astig hehe…

Mahal ko thank you talaga ha, I know I keep saying this but im happy na dumating ka sa buhay ko, your really my inspiration…

Ayayaten ka! Kayat ko nga maamuam nga pampanunuten ka nga kinanayon!

You just have to make the most out of it...

Instead of making a happy entry about the good stuff that has been happening to me, maybe I should write the things that upsets me or the things that I wanted to do but I cant because of some personal reason and some other bullsh[i!1l]t stuff…

This morning my mom and I were talking about how hard life is, and how hard it is to budget money, then I kinda told her that if only I have a brother or sister it should not be this hard because I have someone who will help me in providing for the family, but what can I do, this is my destiny and no matter how I complain things will not change…then my mom, out of the blue said this “dapat kasi mag asawa kana para may katulong kana!” I can not blame my mom for saying that because she is starting to get old and she told me that she envy her brother for having grandchildren….the problem is I don’t know if I will ever get married…I don’t even know if that will happen…anyway while we were talking my mom said “ang dad mo nga naiinis pag nag pupunta dito si Curach, baka daw kasi nahahawa ka ng kabaklaan” and then the dreaded question pop out!!! “:bakla ka ba?” hehe…to tell you the truth I was really caught of guard, and my answer “Ewan”: hehe… that is so funny… hay! Right there and then I could have said yes and let it be ng matapos na, I am happy of what I am, at first I regret being like this but what can I do? Im tired of pretending to be straight, im tired of hearing the question bakla kaba?, I just want to be me, and there is nothing wrong if your gay or bisexual or what ever it is…diba? As long as your not killing or hurting someone ok lang naman diba?….and besides i am so happy with the relationship I have right now, because finally I have found someone who love me and really make me happy, I can say that now I know how it feels to be love back, not the kind of love that I have before that I feel that im the only one who is making the effort to make them happy…

I want to tell it all to my mom but there are some some stuff that’s holding me back…dibale sa sususnod I should have a straight answer to her question! And bahala na kung anong mangyayari!!!!

Mahal ko pag nabasa mo to pls wag mo ako alalahanin , don’t think about my situation here, alam mo nanaman to and I know you’ll understand…

Hay nakaka frustrate talaga…ganyan talaga ang buhay! As I say to my self “ you just have to make the most out of it!!!”

September 10 (a special day)

hay...all i can say is ang saya ng araw na to! as in...

today is the first time na nakapunta ang mahal ko sa bahay namin!
and i can say that everything turn out well...
so the long wait is all worth it, kasi kanina talagang grabe sa saya!!!
pero syempre kung ano man ang nang yari sa amin..sa amin nalang yon...hehe

ang isa pang kinatutuwa ko is that my mom really treat my love as if matagal na silang magkakilala...
my mom is so sweet sa mahal ko na parang my mom can sense na the person im with is special to me (hindi nya kasi alam yung relationship namin) which is great because before my mom is not like that to all of my ex's...(kumusta naman yon diba? hehe)...and you know what's really weird? after my mahal left my mom ask me "ano sa tingin mo impression sa akin ni...?" waw!
my mom is never like that to all my ex's (again hehe)! he never ask that question to me before!!! (kumusta naman yon! hehehe) at eto pa ang isa pang weird...sabi ng mom ko "oh pumunta kayo ng simbahan para naman makilala si...ng patron st natin para lagi sya gabayan sa pag punta dito! (san kapa!) waw talaga!...
the feeling is so good, that its so hard to explain...

mahal ko, i want you to know that i really, really enjoy your visit, masasabi ko na worth it sya, matagal man tayon di nag kita pero tignan mo naman kung gano tayo ka saya kanina...mahirap mag paalam nung huli kasi medyo bitin, pero alam ko marami pang masasayang moment ang magagawa natin dito sa amin...mahal na mahal kita....thank you so much mahal ko i really appriciate na nag punta ka and you take the time to visit me here despite of your busy sched...

thank you for showing me the positive effect of love...

AYAYATEN KA!!!

Pain and Disappointment

There’s always pain and disappointment when you fall in love….and in every relationship you learn something different or you experience something that will really leave a mark to your life…but what’s important is you learn something from it…and try your very best not to do the same mistake… My partner send this kowt to me and I can say that it’s true… There’s Always pain and disappointment When falling in love. But continue sharing your love Because the more you love The more you’ll get to know your self… Because every person you love Becomes your Reflections… Naks naman hehe…well ganon talaga pag mahal mo isang tao…iintindihin mo sya o mas lalawakan mo pa ang pang unawa mo para sa kanya…isipin mo nalang na may reason sya kaya nagawa nya yon…yup masakit yung ginawa mo, pero na appreciate ko na nag sabi ka sa akin ng totoo (at hindi mo ako pinaniwala sa isang kasinungalingan) and ang importante don alam mo na nag kamali ka…pinatawad na kita mahal ko…mahalaga ka sa akin at katulad mo ayaw ko ring mawala ka sa akin… Lets grow together and learn something with each other…in that way we can deepen our relationship. Always remember that I’ll always be here for you… Mahal when you came into my life talagang everything falls into places...alam mo yan di ba (=()…Mahal na mahal kita sobra…ikaw ang aking asawa…ikaw ang aking lakas ang aking inspirasyon at nag bibigay sigla sa buhay ko! (Naks!!!!) Kayat ko nga maamuam nga pampanunuten ka nga kinanayon…ayayatin ka mahal… Never doubt someone's love for you. If you find someone imperfections let it be. If you survived the pain the happiness is satisfying. Never find the perfect love beacause love wiht out pain is imposible...

sa sobrang ka kulitan....

Last Aug 26,06
Kanina sa sobrang ka kulitan ko sa mahal ko eh may nasabi ako na im sure some how eh na upset xa, nasabi ko kasi na hindi ko nararamdaman na namimis nya ako samantalang kagabi tinawagan pa nya talaga ako, tapos nun ayaw pa nya ako na patulugin ng maaga dahil gusto pa nya na makipag kwentuhan kahit sa text, tpoz nun bago matulog tumawag ulit xa para mag good nyt sa akin…sa paglalambing ko sa kanya na upset ko tuloy xa…hihi…sorry po mahal…mis lang talaga kita, alam ko na nahihiripan ka na pag sabayin ang pag aaral mo at ako, tapoz eto pa ako na ngungulit (=( )..

Mahal ko I want you to know na mahal na mahal kita…na miss na miss na kita im sure naman na alam at nararamdaman mo yun…d bale promise mo naman sa akin na babawi ka sa susunod…hindi na ako makapag hintay (=() pag nakita talaga kita hahablutin kita at yayakapin ng mahigpit! Wahahaha…

Kanina nasabi ko sa sarili ko na I thought I knew it all when it comes to relationship, hindi pala, I thought na mature na ako pero minsan mas imature pa ako sa mahal ko(lalo na pag nag lalambing ako sa kanya para talagang bata) eh sya tong masbata sa akin…well ganun talaga ako pag mahal ko isang tao nag babata bataan ba hehe…it works for my mom kasi hehe…naisip ko kanina na oo nga pala ang ikababagsak ng isang tao ay yung feeling nya alam na nya lahat sa buhay, I have so much to learn when it comes to relationship, every person that I love is different from the other and in every relationship I learn something, good or bad nakakatulong naman…minsan lang talaga im so makulit and imature…

Mahal I love you so much…and pls don’t worry your self about the friends that I have…they all know that I only love one person…and that is YOU!

Ayayaten ka!

Pls give advice to a friend of mine

Pls give advice to a friend of mine
A friend of mine wrote to me and said...

Dear Yuri88,

Just when I taught that my relationship with my boyfriend is real and that I can say that this time is true love…I guess im wrong, last night I ask him what would he do if some one insist of courting him even though his in a relationship, would he tell it to me? Would he do it? and his answer said it all “that would be my secret” “ill cross the bridge when I get there”, after I heard his answer my mood suddenly change, I told him that I have to pee…I did pee, but I also got into thinking that “does he really love me?” ”am I not good for him? Am I a bad partner? Is there something wrong with me” I mean he is open to the thought that it would happen and he will keep it a secret to me…it took me a while to talk to him, he knew that the tone of my voice change, and ask me what is wrong, and then the most stupid thing he could ever say is “are you angry of what I’ve said?” is he even thinking? How would he feel if I told him that! I lie I told him that im ok, I wanted to tell it to him but I don’t know why I dint tell him…that night I have made a decision that I should stop my self to love him more I trusted him but I guess I should not…I cant believe him just when I thought what I have with him is true I guess I was wrong…after he ask me to have a second chance I made my self contented of what I have, I stop flirting with other man who is way handsome than him, who is more interested than him, who is more mature than him, who will love me more than he could offer ….i disregard all of them I told them that Im in a relation ship right now and all I can offer is my friendship,because I love him so much and then you would hear to him that if that happen to him he would keep it a Secret?…BULLSHIT...
I thought that there is true love but I guess there is no such thing, there is love, and there is also lies and pretension. I could not believe that someone I loved so much and trusted completely could deceit me….

Believing in true love is no longer simple. Life would actually be easier if I were a cynic…all I have to do is give up.

I know what life’s like. Im not asking for a perfect relationship. I only wish that people wouldn’t give up so easily on love, that they’d keep on believing that something true and beautiful exists.

The challenge for me now it to believe in the good things in the face of reality….

i need your advice yuri...what should i do?

Irene skylark

The Hardest Part

Whats the hardest part in ending a relationship?

Not the feeling of letting go...

Not the part of goodbye...

But going through every damn day

and having to remember it...

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ayaw ko lokohin ang sarili ko na ok na ako kahit hindi pa, pinipilit na kalimutan ang mga ng yari pero maraming mga bagay ang nag papaalala lalo na kung kailang ka umiiwas dun mo pa lalong nararamdaman, naiinis ako kasi gusto ko xa kumustahin pero maspinipili ko na wag nalang, ewan ko ba...sabi ko hindi na ako iiyak o malulungkot pero kagabi hindi ko napigilan na umiyak...mis na mis n kita, and gusto kitang makita o marinig ang boses mo...nahihirapan ako kalimutan ka...sabi nila wag na kitang masyadong isipin dahil hindi ko rin daw sure na iniisip mo rin ako, pero alam ko naiisip mo rin ako, i want you to know na hindi ka fool when it comes to love, lahat tayo fool pag dating doon (tignan mo ako hehe)...i hope ok ka lang...alam mo ba im also a fool kasi im still hoping that one day babalik ka sa akin...

25

Things that I have experience now that I am 25… This morning while having my usual breakfast (coffee and bread), bigla nalang pumasok sa isip ko yung mga na eexperience ko now that I am 25, I can say na sobrang daming bago talaga and I thank God for giving me such experience, he is really making my life more exciting, meaningful and full of adventures. Siguro if im still a teacher half of this, hindi ko mararanasan… In terms of career, since nung napasok ako sa call center ang daming bago ang nangyari sa akin, dito ko nakita ang difference of being a teacher and a CSR. Ang dami kong naging kaibigan at nakilalang tao, people who I thought never exist are there. Dito ko rin naranasan na mag byahe araw araw at umuwi ng disoras ng gabi. Which is kinda cool hehe… Oo nga pala naranasan ko din na mag alok ng credit card at matangal sa dati kong company kasi nahuli ako nung boss ko na nag aaply sa ibang company hehe..thank God kasi kung hindi ng yari yon wala ako sa present company ko ngayon hehe… When it comes naman sa pakikisama sa tao I can say na hindi na ako mahiyain katulad ng dati now I learn to express my self, and dahil dun marami akong nagiging kakilala at nagiging kaibigan yung iba nga close friend na, pero syempre may makikilala ka paring tao na mahirap na pakisamahan pero kailangan nalang intindihin… In terms naman sa love life ko, well ngayon ko lang talaga naranasan ang positive and negative effect of love. Ang sarap pala talagang umibig at ibigin, lagi kang masaya, Inspired ka, pero naranasan ko rin yung negative effect nito ganon pala yon now I can say that nakakarelate na talaga ako dun sa sinasabi ng mga break up song dati kasi di naman ako ganto pag nakikipag hiwalay sa isang relationship, ngayon lang talaga kasi ako nag seryoso tapos ganon pa ang naging ending (ang sakit hehe joke). Ngayon ko talaga naranasan na umiyak ng buong araw, mawalan ng gana sa trabaho, pumangit sa sobrang stress at kakaiyak, pero somehow na survive ko sa tulong ng mga loving and supporting friends of mine (naks)…so ngayon medyo natatakot ako na sumubok ulit na pumasok sa isang relationship natatakot ako na msaktan ulit at maranasan yung pinag dadaanan ko hanggan ngayon , ewan ko ba…lilipas din siguro ito…basta… Minsan naiisip ko na malungkot pala ang mag isa pero mas malungkot pala pag nag iisa ka dahil iniwan ka…(don’t worry ok na ako…(=() nasabi ko lang po iyon hehe…wala po ako galit sayo) Exciting ang 25 ko, ano pa kayang bago ang mararanasan ko? Kung ano manyon….go ahead make my day! hehe All I can say Is everyday is a new adventure for me, lahat ng ito will help me to become a better person today and in the future…naks hehe Thank you God!

The Feeling of...

Its been so long since I updated my blog…and a lot of things happen…I wish I could tell all but some things are better left unsaid…but there is one thing I’m sure I want to share….the feeling of being in love! Yup love is the only thing I’m into right now…I have few relationship and back then I thought it was love…well don’t get me wrong I love them all…. but now it’s a whole different feeling…I love watching romantic comedy films and after watching it you feel good in a way….u feel what the movie want you to feel… then what?…. in real life, its different….not everything is a happy ending story…

But now I can say that I have felt it (the thing)….yes…I did (I’m a human being! I can feel!)…it is a completely different feeling….something that you have never felt before….the first time we met I thought we don’t have a connection…but as the day passed by we are getting intimate with each other….that day I don’t want to go home and just stay with that person…I have never felt it before….the next day I cant stop thinking of that person…I Want to contain my self and just be cool about it but its hard!!!…thank God that person also feels the same…and as the story goes on….we now have each other….

That person shows me the meaning of love….that love gives meaning to your life….love makes you appreciate simple things…..love is enjoying every moment that your together…love is sweet….love is patience…love is everything!!!…..thank YOU for showing me what love is….i never thought that a simple holding hands can be very special…..that the road you walk into every day can have a special meaning…a special memory that when you walk in that same road again it will never be the same…I really cant explain it!!! Ha ha I cant believe my self….I’m in love….I’m really in love!!!

Love is a risk you have to take(and I took it)….if you love someone don’t hold back let, them feel what you feel…don’t be afraid to love…

Thank you, MY LOVE….I LOVE YOU SO MUCH ^_^

this one is for the both of us....

It is indeed inspiring to live our lives for someone who we hope would, one day , share forever with us. But if this hope will be based on feelings and not fact , then we might just wake up one day being sorry for wanting too much.

You are afraid to wake up to a bad dream and you want to give up a fight which you haven't fought yet. Why don't you express your feelings and let see beyond your silence. Communication is the first step in building a relationship. Without this vital element, all and every effort would just be like kisses in the wind.

If you really like a person. Give your best shot. See how he/she reacts and take your next step from there. You can hold on and wait for love or say goodbye and move on.

Turning our backs on someone who inspires us should not be a choice but an option. We give up only when we have tried and we should keep on trying until we exhaust all our reason to hang on.

Let us always remember that it is better to lose a battle that we fought than to lose a battle that we never had had the courage to face.

St. Monique

Its been raining for days…and I hate it, everything I see is wet and sticky that’s why I hate it when it rains…when your walking the mud gets into your short…you have to bring umbrella its cold basta its very hard to move talaga when its raining…the only thing I love is that when its raining you’ll have a good night sleep at night…right? Last Monday I went to St. Monique to apply for a job and also to say goodbye to my friend Jose who is leaving to go to Riyadh …he return some stuff to me like CD’s and magazine…during his stay here I always look forward on seeing him and going to his place…because their you have a sense of independence because Jose has his own bachelor pad…and I also have the chance to see the House of Nene the first winner of Pinoy Big Brother, so I took a picture of his crib and I hope ill have the chance to post it here so you can see it…^_^ Hay saying goodbye to a friend is really hard esp when that person is close to you… Anyway back to my application on that the the girl who is the assistant principle to L’ Ecole Du St. Monique told me that I have to complete me requirements…so she ask me to pass it this week…so Yesterday (jan 25) I go there again to pass it…tapos pag kapasa ko she told me to wait for her call because their screening will start on Feb…so I have to wait pa…

Stupid hirits

What is the common question when you attend a get together or a wedding of an old college classmate? Eh di ano pa! “O, bat wala ka pang girlfriend?” (hay its hard talaga if ur a celebrity…^_^)
Kakarating ko lang, umatend ako ng wedding ng college classmate ko si Charale, she is part of my tropa during that time…and kanina is her special day, buntis na xa 8 months na, its hard to believe kasi she is a very shy and simple girl (nasa loob pala ang kulo hihi Joke) so nung nakita ko xa kanina…wala lang ^_^ nadun din yung mga ka major ko dati and they all have the same comment about me “Ryan mukhang totoy ka parin…parang walang nag bago sayo…ang cute mo parin! (joke!)…tumaba lang daw ako ng konte at mukhang bata parin daw, xempre tuwa namn ako ^_^ ibig sabihin d pa ako mukhang matanda, sa kanila kasi maraming nag bago, may tumaba, lalong pumangit (JOKE)…at nag mukhang…and then the question “my girlfriend ka na ba?”, “O, bat wala ka pang girlfriend?” hay! Ano nga ba ang smart response sa mga stupid hirits?
“Are you kidding? Im having such a blast being single!”…tama ba sinagot ko?…hay dbale sana kung maganda yung nagtanong d naman ^_^.
24 palang ako and marami pang tao ang mag tatanong non sa akin…its hard! (if you know what I mean)…d bale guys it will come! Intay lang kayo ^_^
tapos kanina nadun yung x gf ko (which is a good friend of mine) kasama yung bago nya bf na classmate namin wala lang…ok naman sakin…it means nag move on na ako!…d naman nya sinabi sa aakin pero I know…
anyway before I went there nag punta muna ako sa St. Monique and natupad ko na rin na makita ang bahay ni Nene…ang ganda, nadun nga yung napanalunan nyang nissan titanium ang ganda…nag picture picture nga ako don..hihi…di bale pag na pa prin ko post ko dito…hay masaya din ang araw na to…basta masaya…^_^