Saturday, October 6, 2007

Love will...

Love will lead you back, hmm really? I mean what if love lead you back and the person you go back into already moved on or its too late to be together again? What if you’ve waited for so long and hope that someday he will come back to you but it never happen… question that only time can answer…

I personaly hope that the message of this song will happen to me, that one day he will come back to me and he will say how he misses me that he still love me despite of all the things that had happen. Just thinking of it makes heart burst with so much emotion. But I know in reality it will never happen, im realty hoping that he will back to me but I know that he already move on and now in the arms of his new partner and they are happy…Im really hurting because I still love him, he is the first guy who I really took seriously and in the end will just give up on me that easily…it took me how many months to move on but up until now, im still hoping that Love will lead him back to my arms, were he belong…

I hate this, I don’t wanna write stuff about him anymore, I promise that one day if ever that destiny will give us the chance to cross path I will be better than before, that I’m successful and with more good looks and good physique… I know that he don’t go for looks but I also want to improve not only for him but also to my self…that one day I will say to him this is the guy now that you left along time ago and now im rockin!

Am I that selfish because I only look on his fault? Maybe I also have some defect like my mood swing and my capacity to make a small issue a really big one. But im not like that alll the time, I mean im only like that if I know im right…my be I should learn how to control my moods. I cant help to think that somehow its my fault why we break up.

I don’t want to torture my self anymore, I WANT TO MOVE ON, I WANT TO FIND SOME ONE THAT I CAN LOVE AND WILL LOVE MY AND WILL UNDERSTAND AND ACCEPT ME FOR WHO I AM AND I’LL ASLO DO THE SAME…