Pinky

Pinky…ang new name ng aking bagong netbook…why pinky? Well you guess it right its because of the color…I do have the choice to have a color red netbook but there is this one store who gives me a bargain so I go ahead and grab it…they only have two colors avail that’s black and pink…I don’t want to have a conventional looking netbook so we chose pink and anyway its for home use only and who cares if its pink…I like it…we like it!

I have been dreaming of this moment that I am typing my blog entry at my lap on my own net book and now im finally doing it…things do come but it takes a while…I still need to learn how to wait sometimes ^__^…

Now lets move on to a more serious topic…well im on leave today that’s why I have the time to write this blog…nonoy is already at the office working from 9pm to 6pm so now im alone again in our room… we have moved by the way…we are now closer to our office we are now living under the roof of ate jade our former office mate…our room here is quite small compare to what we have in decastro but its ok what matter is we are close to the office and I am with my loving husband…so anyway back to serious mode..the reason for my leave is because I have herpes…yup I never thought that I would have this but I did…so now im on leave…thank god according to the doctor that this is not life threatening like other viral infection…during that time nonoy and I thought that it was a simple singaw cause by my high fever…pero hindi pala…parang binagsakan ang mundo ko while the doctor is telling the cause of herpes nawala yung lagnat ko habang nakikining ako sa kanya…ang alam ko kasi nag kakaganun lang yung mga tao na nakikipag sex kahit kanino…I know my self and I can make sure that nonoy is the only partner that I have for the past 10months and wala na ako ni meet pa bukod sa kanya…and nonoy on the other hand is virgin when it comes to things like this…sabi nga nia na I am the one who broke his virginity…so while the docto is telling me what to do…the only thing I can think off is sana mali siya…after the consultation he ask me if I would like to take the HIV test just to make sure that I don’t have any disease…during that time gusto ko na talagang umiyak I look at nonoy and he said to me ba tatagan ko loob ko pero that time hindi ko kaya…after the test and after naming lumabas ng clinic hindi ko na alam kung ano pinag iisip ko nakahit sa labas eh hindi ko mapigilan umiyak…pano kung ako nga…pano kung mahawa sa akin si nonoy…ako pa ngayon sisira sa kinabukasan nia…at kung ang result is positive anu na lang mang yayari sa akin? Xempre pag nalaman yun lalo ng nga family ko at friends ko im sure iiwasan na nila ako…

Right now im still hanging on the bridge hindi pa rin ako mapapakali hangat hindi ko nalalaman yung result…bukas na yon…gusto ko sana ako nalang kaso nonoy want to be with me…and together we are going to face it…im preparing for the worst and hoping for the best…